Being raised in a Christian faith based home, and respecting the unspoken rule of not having children out of wedlock, today’s guest began her journey to motherhood at 38 years old.

Crystal Justice found out she was pregnant on Aug 9, 2018. On Sept 7, 2018 she was told that the pregnancy was no longer viable. Despite my HCG levels and Progesterone levels being normal her D&C was scheduled on Sept 11, 2018 which is was her partner’s birthday. In this episode Crystal takes us back to that day and how her faith has helped her heal from miscarriage. This episode is for you to listen to if you have had a miscarriage, maybe advanced maternal age, and still have the desire to become a mother.

Shawn Owens found out she was expecting as she was preparing for an outpatient procedure. She and her husband were shocked by the news due to her diagnosis with uterine fibroids and her being 38 years old. Shawn wanted to wait to share the news with her family around Father’s Day. She ended up in the Emergency Room a week before Fathers Day with severe pain and bleeding. The doctors could not detect a heartbeat and sent her home with medication for pain to miscarry with no direction.

In today’s episode Shawn takes us back to that day and then shares when she was ready to try again to conceive her rainbow baby which pregnancy came with many challenges like bleeding, being placed on bed rest, and not being able to walk due to the size of her 5 fibroids.

Tanisha Garnier has experienced a loss of her son Xavier Lawrence at 21 weeks due to a short cervix that wasn’t detected until her 19 week ultrasound.  Tanisha also has beat infertility from being diagnosed with PCOS and having a history of not ovulating because of irregular periods. She was able to conceive Xavier after a few months of fertility treatments with her OB, and after a year she tried again, and in this episode, she has birthed her miracle and rainbow baby Ezra Joy at 25 weeks.  In this episode we had to reschedule due to a scare of preterm birth in her pregnancy, and we could chat about her experience in the NICU thus far with Ezra. This episode is for you to listen to if you have been diagnosed with PCOS, incompetent cervix, had a micropreemie and extended NICU stay.

Recurrent pregnancy loss is defined as 3 consecutive losses prior to 20 weeks gestation.  Today’s guest Tori Alamaze has carried and birth 4 babies, but only has only living child the other 3 babies died due to incompetent cervix and a recurrent pregnancy loss diagnosis.  In today’s episode Tori shares her journey to motherhood after receiving vaginal cerclages and having them fail at 24 weeks with her son Issa and at 21 weeks with her boy/girl twins. She knew she needed to research to understand what was happening to her body and she found abbeyloopers.com.  From her research she knew she would be a great candidate for a Trans Abdominal Cerclage and in this episode she takes us back on the journey to making the decision to undergo major abdominal surgery prior to conceiving to have her rainbow baby girl.

May is always a difficult and painful month for us Sisters in Loss. I’m here to let you know that You’re Still a Mother on Mother’s Day and everyday of the year, if You’ve Had a Miscarriage, Infant Loss, Stillbirth, and Infertility Challenges. Celebrate Mother’s Day in your own special way, and reflect on your baby in heaven and the future babies that will be here with you on earth. I love you Sisters in Loss and know that we are here to support you, love on you, and encourage you in every way. Join us in our private community at SistersinLoss.com

In today’s episode we have Halima Edge who shares her 2nd trimester miscarriage story and how her rainbow baby healed her. Halima shares in this episode the traumatic birth she had a 20 weeks and how she turned to God for healing, understanding, and restoration. The doctors could not diagnose her with premature labor or incompetent cervix so when she became pregnant again with her rainbow baby she received a cerclage due to her previous cervical challenges. Her rainbow baby boy was born at 39 weeks after overcoming the fear of losing him and healing throughout the pregnancy. This episode is for you to listen to if you have been pregnant after loss and how to seek God for healing, understanding, and restoration.

March is Pregnancy After Loss Awareness month. This month we are discussing Pregnancy After Loss, but also loss of jobs, marriages, and family members as you grieve the loss of your angel.

In today’s episode we have Keleah Brown who shares grief from losing a job and one twin during pregnancy. Keleah experienced two miscarriages; one before her current pregnancy and she lost a twin during this pregnancy. She has dealt with the stress of trying to conceive, being a mother and while pregnant, losing her job, miscarrying, homeschooling, high risk pregnancy, all while moving to a new state. All of Keleah’s experiences lead her to write her debut poetry collection titled “Carried: MOTHERHOOD | miscarriage.” Keleah shares in this episode how she has managed her grief through all of the trauma she has experienced and shared in this episode how it feels to carry one twin while grieving the loss of the other one. This episode is for you to listen to if you have experienced grief from lost of a job or a twin in pregnancy.

March is Pregnancy After Loss Awareness month. This month we are discussing Pregnancy After Loss, but also loss of jobs, marriages, and family members as you grieve the loss of your angel. In today’s episode we have Shannon Duke. In June 2012 she had her first miscarriage. Shannon endured 3 more losses (Dec.2012, March 2014, July 2014), before she had Mackenzie at 21 weeks in March 2016. Shannon had to deliver her early due to severe pre-eclampsia. She then went on to have another miscarriage in Dec.2016, I lost my mother in June 2017, and suffered another miscarriage in Sept 2017. All of her losses except Mackenzie were missed miscarriages. She didn’t make it pass 8 or 9 weeks. Shannon then went on to have her rainbow baby her miracle named Gracyn was born on July 15,2018. Shannon has a story to tell and I’m excited to share her story with you.

Pregnancy loss and infertility can be so hard on a marriage. It can either tear the couple apart or bring them closer together. In fact it is said that almost 80% of couples who experience a miscarriage or infertility end up in divorce. In this month of love we will be featuring 4 couples showing by prayer, faith in God, and a strong commitment to stay together their marriages endured the hard times of pregnancy loss and infertility. This is the last couple in our series The Martin’s. They are fellow podcasters and have created Chasing Rainbows podcast documenting their infertility journey. In this episode they take us back to the beginning of their journey to parenthood, battling infertility with a PCOS diagnosis, how they grieved their son Noah they loss at 20 weeks, and how Starbucks is helping fund their IVF journey.

How have you coped with your loss? In today’s episode we have Andrea Fenise who share her 2nd trimester miscarriage and how she is coping with loss. Andrea is a mom, wife, and creative entrepreneur. She raised her daughter Amira for 9 years as a single mother. Andrea found love, married, and was excited to be pregnant with a girl name Olivia Isabelle. She loss Olivia at 17 weeks and in this episode she goes into detail of this journey and how she has coped with the loss. This episode is for you to listen to if you have experienced a 2nd trimester miscarriage or have struggled to cope with loss.